Re:Sex With A Narcissist
(Date Posted:11/22/2009 6:25 PM)
that link on sex with a narcissist, wow. I couldnt figure out why he treated me like love making is dirty and he cannot kiss me during or after because my mouth is dirty. To me what ever the two involved agree on as safe and loving is just making love. That is all I know, making love. So many things in that link... with holding as he believes he needs to punish me, and it is punishing. He makes me feel dirty for wanting to make love with my mate.
The hardest thing for me right now is realizing that there is no hope.
He was laying in bed watching football and I was just sitting there bored and quiet. He rolled over on to his stomach and I asked are you going to sleep? He snapped at me, I don't know. so I asked are you tired? he said, I don't know. I went out and fed his dog and noticed the water dish was empty. I filled it and while placing it down the dog growled, I corrected him and he growled again. I then removed the food until the dog settled. Then I went to put dishes away from the egg skillet I made for him for lunch. then I unloaded the washer. When finished with these little chores I went back into the bedroom to ask him what he wanted for supper. he yelled at me, "What is your f''ing problem, I am trying to sleep. Why is it when I am trying to sleep you slam the cupboards, throw dishes around, yell at the dog. (i didn't yell at the dog, I just said no to him)
I said, I didn't go out there to try to wake you. I just was taking care of things. I wasn't loud or quiet just doing things. He called me a B and turned away.
If I do not speak I am accused of pouting. If I speak I am accused of yelling. I wait for him to get out of bed to pick up or cook or clean or take care of the dog... today he woke at 1200 I woke him on purpose. I went in quietly and whispered, honey, it is noon, is your football team playing. It is so scary because I do not know if I am going to be yelled at or not. He didn't yell at me for that. So I was leaving the room and he then he yelled at me, Are you going to come in here and wake me up for footbal and then leave without turning the TV on for me? so I turned it on and left the bedroom.
he was up to watch the game eat lunch or breakfast... then back to sleep.
I keep thinking that he can change. I mean it makes sense to me that since I have figured it out and know his dirty little secrets... why not love me and learn how to be a better person with me?
my feet are bleeding from the egg shells.
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