SEARCHING OUR HEART OF HEARTS
February 1 , 2008.
you been cleaning out your closets of late? Re-arranging those file
cabinets? Going through your old storage places? Getting rid of all
those old cd’s you no longer listen to? Throwing out things you have
not been utilizing for awhile and feel are no longer a fit for you now?
Are you re-arranging and organizing?
retrograde is assisting us in preparing for our very new beginnings.
Going back and clearing out the old is a part of this process.
Innately, we are getting ready for what is to come, as we will soon be
very busy with all the new manifestations and won’t have much time to
deal with old business. In addition, the old no longer serves us in a
new beginning as it is part of an energy of the past…an energy which
does not exist in this very new reality we are now poised to experience.
“Where do I go from here?” you may be wondering. “I can no longer go back to the old creations of what was, or to where I
once was, but I have absolutely no idea where I am headed now! And
where is it anyway? Nothing seems to be arriving or manifesting for me!
Just a lot of confusion and see-sawing!” Yes, we cannot go back. This
is because we are no longer in alignment with the old. Through the
massive restructuring and purging and releasing process we undertook in
2007, we are now most certainly no longer a match for what we once were.
then, we know we must go forward into something new, as it is most
certainly time for our very new beginnings. The challenge we now face,
is that a higher vibrating reality which we now match has not yet been created,
and we then find ourselves in states of confusion, feeling lost,
identity crisis, lack of confidence, insecurity, and the like.
“Where in the world am I?” you may wonder. “And who
in the world am I?” you may wonder as well. Going forward into
situations and creations of the old only serves to feel like a lateral
change, and a disappointing one at best…and many of us know that it is
indeed time for a change.
state of being can create indecisiveness as well, because we are not
totally sure about this or that as nothing seems to fit as it should.
We cannot say “YES!” like we may want to. The presidential elections
here in the US are illuminating this state as well. One moment we will
have a frontrunner, and the next this candidate will be at the bottom
of the poles. There is a new twist and turn at every moment.
are in a state of indecisiveness, confusion, insecurity, and angst
because things are not yet settled in regard to what is coming. There
is still time for change, and time for individuals and situations to
make new and different decisions before the big thrust of the new
are moving ahead, others are not willing to make a change or release
the old, and thus, new matches are abounding. And then suddenly,
changes may be made and an entirely new scenario unfolds again. It can
be difficult to stay steady and catch up to all these roller coaster
manifestations! And finding and declaring a steady path can be near
impossible as well!
then, during this time, we are being asked to consult our heart of
hearts. Our heart of hearts…the deepest part within us…who we really
are…what we are really about…thus, what we are really wanting. We have
left much of our old selves behind (and will continue with this process
over and over again), and now what we are being matched up to might be
something entirely different than we have ever known before.
we have tapped into and are now vibrating our true and more purified
selves more than ever before, what we thought we may have wanted last
year, may now no longer fit. We are different people now. When we
search deep within us, we may find that we now want what we have been
missing in our lives for a very long time. We are attempting to balance
out, in addition to creating what is in alignment with who we really
and truly are.
is but another piece as well. We need our brothers and sisters with us
now. We can no longer create and live alone. We are now vibrating more
than ever as a whole. We can no longer do “it” by ourselves. We need
each other as never before.
new babies are arriving as well…and arriving in droves! It is so
exciting to see. They are so ready to be here, as they know that much
has been accomplished and it is now time for them to be here and hold
the energy for a very new world. We just found out that my daughter is
having twins! We are so excited, as she was not planning a pregnancy,
and twins do not run in any of our families. These new little ones want
to be here, and are taking every opportunity to find an opening! They
are a very new energy, and vibrate very differently than any of our
little ones so far.
then, the dramas are not over yet. There is still time for many new
twists and turns as things are still lining up for us. The best thing
we can do right now, is to ask ourselves what it is that we truly want,
down to the very last detail. Things are never all or nothing, black or
white. It is always best to tweak our dreams into scenarios and
realities that truly fit in all ways. We may want a little of this
here, and a little of that there…not necessarily an end to some things,
but perhaps just less of some things and more of others.
is time to get brutally honest now. Behaviors and manifestations in
others that may have bothered us in the past may have bothered us
because we needed and wanted more of what the other had, but could not
rationalize or allow it in ourselves. This type of situation comes from
mis-perceptions within us…and we all have them!
are now poised at a very beautiful place where we can do all of this.
We can really and truly decide what it is that we want. What we really
want and perhaps could never admit to or were not consciously aware of,
or even ready for until now. Most first wavers want to retire. They
have done a lot for this planet so far. The end of this rainbow
involves setting up for the new world, and then choosing if we want to
stay in our self created heaven or move on into a very new universe
which our souls have never experienced before. It is a time for the
graduation of our souls. A time like never before.
then, some will strongly desire their heaven on earth, and others will
be at a place where they desire to assist humanity and serve in regard
to getting more and more souls on board and into the higher realms. And
then, of course, many will be doing both for awhile. I have written
more about this structure and plan on my new web site, but part of me
is so wanting to retire that I have manifested a “lost in the mail” new
laptop (for weeks now!), and a new web site that seems to be taking
forever to be ready!
that we are always right where we need to be, and all, as always, is in
divine and perfect order. The dust has yet to settle. But the new is
getting closer and closer every day, and when it indeed arrives, it
will be a great match for us!
Wishing you heaven in your heart, starlight in your soul, and miracles in your life in these miraculous times...
Until next time,